breakdown

im tired of breakdowns. for the past couples years, breakdowns have seemed to become part of my everyday life. whether ive tried to have one good day without worries &pressure, theres always one thing that makes my day another questionable day. today, i have had enough.

for one thing, pressure from family, high school life, social situations, guy troubles, &everyday teenage life has made me question my ability to move on. i am always thinking, if i still have the strength i had in the beginning of the year. because i know for a great fact that i am not the same person i was a couple months ago, thanks to situations &obstacles that life has decided to give me.

&to the one that made my heart &broke it, who i trusted &betrayed me, screw you. i got used to the sweetness &followed my heart &ignored what everyone was warning me about. i let my guard down &yet you let me fall thousands of miles. i know IM ONLY FOOLING MYSELF, but i still wish/hope/pray that you see things my way.