Honestly, during the whole summer i was scared &nervous to go back to school. I wasn't sure i could handle challenges that i knew would come my way. Everytime I see you in the halls, I turn away. However, i will smile at you because I'm not the same girl you thought I was. From the sad / hard experiences i went through, I am defiantly a different person than you think. In class, i feel those awkward stares that i did not intend to happen. Truthfully, I don't know who starts them, however I am willing to talk again. Its all clear to me what i want, however once again I'm afraid of disappointment. I know that i don't want what happened between us to vanish into thin air. Of course, it would be nice to talk again, because i hate loosing friends. But the sad part is, you obviously don't know what you want. &honestly I'm done waiting for sh/t. I know that what I'm hoping for is impossible, however I can &will keep small hope in me.